happy birthday ah mei! / Sunday, August 12, 2012
Me and TBL!
Photos taken on my sister's birthday, which is also national day.
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/now that you are gone.
8/12/2012 09:13:00 PM
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2 years... / Monday, June 4, 2012
wow. it's june 2012! TWO THOUSAND AND TWELVE!!! crazy crazy. been 2 years since my last post here. it's amazing how time flies... just like those pills above, never seem to slow down a single bit at all. i almost thought i may not be able to sign in to blogspot again. so much hesitation while typing the user and password, because i haven't done this for a fucking long time! well, i guess i am quite lucky to be able to get it at the first try because i do remember changing my password a few times in this 2 years. but, HUA LA! LOGGED IN. who ever that's seeing this post, unlucky or lucky u decide because you're looking at my FIRST post of 2012, totally skipped 2011, and let's hope the world don't end just yet this year. whoever you are reading this, do me a favor please, write on my tag board (is this what it's being called? haha, you know what i am talking about! that thing on the right) but i guess i am pretty much fine talking to me myself and i, since 3 is a crowd anyway...
/now that you are gone.
6/04/2012 03:08:00 AM
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/ Saturday, June 12, 2010
will u ever want me back?
/now that you are gone.
6/12/2010 09:24:00 PM
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sleepless nights... / Friday, June 11, 2010
SECONDS, HOURS, SO MANY DAYS... U KNOW WHAT YOU WANT BUT HOW LONG CAN U WAIT? EVERY MOMENT LAST FOREVER, WHEN U FEEL U LOST UR WAY... WHAT IF MY CHANCES WERE ALREADY GONE? STARTING BELIEVING THAT I COULD B WRONG...BUT U GIVE ME ONE GOOD REASON, TO FIGHT AND NEVER WALK AWAY... SO HERE I AM STILL HOLDING ON......
/now that you are gone.
6/11/2010 05:24:00 AM
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/ Wednesday, June 9, 2010
I JUST WOKE UP NOT TOO LONG AGO... FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE I COULD REMEMBER SO VIVDLY WHAT HAPPENED IN MY DREAM... I WOKE UP CRYING. IT FEELS TERRIBLE TT IT'S JUST A DREAM & THIS DREAM WILL ONLY BE A DREAM. (FUCKING EMO NOW) I WISH I COULD I TELL U THIS TAM, BUT I GUESS IT'S ALL OVER BETWEEN US NOW....................... IT WAS A TAM'S WEDDING CEREMONY AND I WAS INVITED. THERE WAS A BEAUTIFUL STAGE, A TAN & BEAUTIFUL GIRL. A LOT OF GUESTS WERE INVITED. THERE'S EVEN A CINEMA FOR GUESTS TO RELAX B4 THE CEREMONY STARTS. BUT AS USUAL, MY DREAM IS ALWAYS WEIRD. THERE'S THIS GIRL WHO STOLE A HANDCUFF FROM THE POLICE AND WANA HANDCUFF TAM N A GUY TGT, I CANNOT TELL WHETHER IT'S A PRANK, WANA SPOIL THE WEDDING OR OTHERWISE. BCOS WHO'S TT GUY I DONT REMEMBER! SHE SET UP A TRAP WHICH SHE SHLD HAVE USED THE BRIDE'S RING AS THE BAIT BUT INSTEAD USED STH SILLY, I THINK IS, FOOD, AS BAIT. HENCE, IT FAILED BADLY. THE WEIRD PRANK I MENTIONED WASNT THE REASON WHY I GOT SO EMO N DECIDED TO WRITE THIS DOWN. THE FACT (DREAM) TT IT WAS TAM'S WEDDING N I WASN'T THE BRIDEGROOM, THE FACT (DREAM) TT I WAS INVITED T WITHNESS THIS MOMENT. THE FACT TT I THINK I STILL LOVE HER EVEN THOU I TELL MYSELF TO FORGET, FORGET, FORGET! I CAN'T. SO LET ME FINISH MY STORY (MY DREAM). AFTER SOME CRAZY ADVANTURE, THE CEREMONY STARTED. AT ONE CORNER OF THE STAGE, I COULD SEE THE HUGE GLAMOROUS RING BEING TAKEN OUT OF A RED BOX. PEOPLE WERE CHATTERING AMONG THEMSELVES TALKING ABT HOW SHINY, PRICEY, THE RING IS. SUDDENLY... I FELT TT I WAS THE FOCUS ALL OF THE SUDDEN BCOS THE BRIDE LOOKED AT ME. THE BRIDE LIFT UP HER HAND AWAITING FOR THE GROOM TO PLACE THE RING NICELY INTO HER HAND. I WAS OVERWHELMED BY THIS SCENE. SHE LOOKED AT ME AGAIN N THIS TIME ROUND, I POINTED INTO HER FACE AS SHE LOOKED OVER AT ME, N I SHOUTED, "I HATE U!", N I TURNED TO MY BACK N RAN OFF TO THE NEAREST EXIT TT GETS ME OUT OF THE HALL. I STILL CAN RECALL THE WIND BLOWING AGAINST MY FACE, MANY FLIGHT OF STAIRS TT I HAD WENT DOWN UNTIL I REACH THE GROUNDFLOOR WHERE THERE'S THIS GARDEN WITH A WHITE COLOUR SWING TT CAN ACCOMODATE FOR 2 PERSON. IT WAS FAR AWAY ENOUGH FOR ME NOT TO HEAR A SINGLE BIT OF ECHO COMING FROM THE HALL. IT WAS ALL QUIET. I SAT ON THE SWING THINKING ABT WHAT I JUST WENT THRU. SOME MOMENTS LATER.... I HEARD QUICK SKIPPING FOOTSTEPS COMING TOWARDS MY DIRECTION FROM A CORNER. A SMALL FIGURE GIRL, DRESS IN HER MOST CASUAL CLOTHES CAME OUT OF THE CORNER N SAT DOWN BESIDE ME. IT WAS TAM. SHE WAS STILL PENTING ( MUST B HAVENT BEEN RUNNING MUCH), LOOKING HAPPY (TRYING TO CHEER ME UP I GUESS). I ASKED HER, "WHY R U HERE!? I THOT U'RE... THERE?" SHE TOLD ME SHE CALLED OFF THE WEDDING N HER FAMILY IS OFF TO THE AIRPORT FOR THE HONEYMOON HOLIDAY! THIS GIRL BLOW MY MIND AWAYA AGIN. IT'S THE SAME CRAZY TAM I NOE N TT I CAN EXPECT SUCH A THING FROM HER. SHE WAS SEATED ON MY RIGHT, ROCKING HER LEGS, HANDS STRAIGHTEN PLACED AT THE EDGE OF THE CHAIR, HEAD TURNED TO THE LEFT AS SHE TALKED T ME WITH TT LITTLE BIT OF, AH AIYA IT'S NO BIG DEAL TT KIND OF LOOK, NOT FORGETTING TO MENTION THE SMILE ON HER FACE TT'S ONE OF THE REASON I FELL IN LOVE WITH N TOTALLY MESMORISED BY IT. I CAN'T HELP IT BUT HUGGED HER LIKE NV B4, AS TEARS STARTED ROLLING DOWN MY CHEEKS AGAIN......... N THEN THE WORSE THING HAPPENED: I WOKE UP.... CRYING.
/now that you are gone.
6/09/2010 02:36:00 PM
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/ Sunday, June 6, 2010
"P K TAN! YOU SHOULD MOVE ON ALREADY!!! FUCK."
/now that you are gone.
6/06/2010 08:40:00 PM
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/ Saturday, June 5, 2010
i guess she has totally moved on already. i don't think she even misses me... never got the chance to hear from her or anything.. i guess it's time for me to move on too?
/now that you are gone.
6/05/2010 05:13:00 AM
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/ Wednesday, May 19, 2010
what good advice "valentine's day" the movie, gave right at the start of the show. jessica alba (sry i really like u but..) you're dumb in that show. you just let a good man slipped passed u. but of course, he got togther with his bestfriend. wonderful.
here's the quote:
when i was a kid, most of the advice my dad gave me was crap. there's one thing the he said that was pure genius. he said, "if you ever are with a girl that's too good for you, marry her."
watched this show and i felt like this show is made to laugh at me. ok never mind, let me just say that me, just not ready for another relationship now. too many things in my mind. it's hard to let go...
/now that you are gone.
5/19/2010 05:30:00 AM
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/ Monday, May 17, 2010
im writing again, at such wee hours of the day. slept the whole day today n i think the only so called fruitful thing i did while lying down resting was, i watched "the bounty hunter" on my lappy. i dint purposely picked this show but it's available there so i decided to just watch it. lots of memories again as i watch this romance show. it's abt how this "couple" (once married but divorce), they reali hated each other bcos of the different opinions n values they had. one of them, or rather both of them sometimes piorities their work more than relationship n each time they have to spend time on their work somehow both of them cannot understand each other why the their "partner" is behaving this way. perhaps this is something common in a relationship (but not all relationships has a happy ending like theirs). through a crazy advanture they had together (they dint plan for this), she realised he knew her alot more than what she expected, likewise for him. such extremes, but yet through their differences they realise they still love each other (remember, they hated each other). somehow im just skeptical abt such shows now, happy endings can only b made into a movie. in reality, it's totally bullish. pardon me for saying this. this is my fucking blog (: im still feeling weak, im still having the fever, but fuck it, this won't kill me.
/now that you are gone.
5/17/2010 01:31:00 AM
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wrote this with a fever. But emo has gotten the other side of me...... / Sunday, May 16, 2010
AS I WRITE THIS, I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABT THIS PERSON. SHE DOESN'T KNOW HOW IMPORTANT SHE IS TO ME... EVEN TILL NOW, I BET SHE'S MUCH HAPPIER NOW WITH ME GONE. BUT WHAT SHE DIDN'T KNOW IS TT SHE LEFT A DEEP SCAR IN MY HEART. THINGS COULD HAVE BEEN MUCH EASIER 6MONTHS OR 1 YR AGO WHEN I DECIDED TO PUT AN END TO IT, BUT IT WAS HER TT MADE ME CHANGE MY MIND. BCOS I KNEW I LOVE HER... I REALLY DO. EVERYTIME AS I GO ONLINE... UNCONSIOUSLY I WILL DROP BY THE BLOG TT SHE MADE JUST TO MAKE THINGS EASIER FOR THE BOTH OF US WHEN WE (SHE) CLDN'T EXPRESS HER FEELINGS TO ME FACE TO FACE. IT'S STILL THERE... AND I JUST CAN'T HELP IT BUT BREAK DOWN EVERYTIME I READ THOSE POSTS SAYING TT SHE WANTS ME BACK. SUCH IRONY. THINGS CHANGE.. SHE GAVE UP ON ME, SHE GAVE UP ON THE RELATIONSHIP. 2 YRS AND THIS IS WHAT'S LEFT, THIS IS THE END RESULT OF OUR SO CALLED LOVE. I GUESS I'VE FALLEN TOO DEEP INTO THIS RELATIONSHIP. HOW FOOLISH OF ME TO EVEN THOUGHT OF MARRYING HER N LIVE THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH HER AFTER SHE WANTS ME BACK. IT'S HARD FOR ME. ESP SINCE NOW I HAVE TO ERASE THIS SO CALLED DREAM I HAVE BUILT TOGETHER WITH HER IN MY MIND. I FEEL TERRIBLE. SUPER TERRIBLLE. I HATE HOURS LIKE TT. IT MAKES ME FUCKING EMO. FUCK THIS PHONE TT IM USING TO TYPE THIS POST, BCOS IT'S ALL IN STUPID CAPTION WHICH I CANT SEEM TO FIX THIS PROBLEM. I WANT SOMEONE WHO LOVES ME... I WANT HER TO LOVE ME. BUT IT AIN'T THE SAME ANYMORE. SHE WILL NEVER SEE THIS...
/now that you are gone.
5/16/2010 03:48:00 AM
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it has been almost 2 yrs since i last tagged my last post. so much memories flash thru my mind as i browse thru this old blog of mine. it's crazy how much i've been thru... not alone... but i feel alone now... so alone. i decided to write here after so long is not bcos i wana revive this blog, but rather, i'm burning to express my feelings out...
/now that you are gone.
5/16/2010 03:35:00 AM
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/ Saturday, June 14, 2008
POP loh!but someone is not around :(
i miss you!
i'm here waiting for you...
/now that you are gone.
6/14/2008 10:48:00 AM
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/ Tuesday, April 8, 2008
today tammy and i went to army market to shop for my army stuffs. clarence helped me with a list of items to buy for army and everything was pretty smooth actually. spent $37 on everything. not bad not bad. had some delicious food at the hawker. it has been quite some time since i ate deer meat. yammy. i'll miss u alot darling!
remember me when i am gone...
botak.
smelly.
tanned.
looking forward to come home in 2 weeks time...
/now that you are gone.
4/08/2008 03:41:00 AM
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/ Monday, March 24, 2008
PICTURES! PICTURES!!!A Very Late Post: Rae's Farewell Party
/now that you are gone.
3/24/2008 01:04:00 AM
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/ Saturday, February 9, 2008
Surf and Sweat 08 (: (: (: (:
here are some of the pictures taken at vivocity. hah. we're a crazy bunch of people.. agree? yes? HA.
/now that you are gone.
2/09/2008 04:43:00 PM
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