/ Wednesday, May 19, 2010
what good advice "valentine's day" the movie, gave right at the start of the show. jessica alba (sry i really like u but..) you're dumb in that show. you just let a good man slipped passed u. but of course, he got togther with his bestfriend. wonderful.
here's the quote:
when i was a kid, most of the advice my dad gave me was crap. there's one thing the he said that was pure genius. he said, "if you ever are with a girl that's too good for you, marry her."
watched this show and i felt like this show is made to laugh at me. ok never mind, let me just say that me, just not ready for another relationship now. too many things in my mind. it's hard to let go...
/now that you are gone.
5/19/2010 05:30:00 AM
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/ Monday, May 17, 2010
im writing again, at such wee hours of the day. slept the whole day today n i think the only so called fruitful thing i did while lying down resting was, i watched "the bounty hunter" on my lappy. i dint purposely picked this show but it's available there so i decided to just watch it. lots of memories again as i watch this romance show. it's abt how this "couple" (once married but divorce), they reali hated each other bcos of the different opinions n values they had. one of them, or rather both of them sometimes piorities their work more than relationship n each time they have to spend time on their work somehow both of them cannot understand each other why the their "partner" is behaving this way. perhaps this is something common in a relationship (but not all relationships has a happy ending like theirs). through a crazy advanture they had together (they dint plan for this), she realised he knew her alot more than what she expected, likewise for him. such extremes, but yet through their differences they realise they still love each other (remember, they hated each other). somehow im just skeptical abt such shows now, happy endings can only b made into a movie. in reality, it's totally bullish. pardon me for saying this. this is my fucking blog (: im still feeling weak, im still having the fever, but fuck it, this won't kill me.
/now that you are gone.
5/17/2010 01:31:00 AM
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wrote this with a fever. But emo has gotten the other side of me...... / Sunday, May 16, 2010
AS I WRITE THIS, I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABT THIS PERSON. SHE DOESN'T KNOW HOW IMPORTANT SHE IS TO ME... EVEN TILL NOW, I BET SHE'S MUCH HAPPIER NOW WITH ME GONE. BUT WHAT SHE DIDN'T KNOW IS TT SHE LEFT A DEEP SCAR IN MY HEART. THINGS COULD HAVE BEEN MUCH EASIER 6MONTHS OR 1 YR AGO WHEN I DECIDED TO PUT AN END TO IT, BUT IT WAS HER TT MADE ME CHANGE MY MIND. BCOS I KNEW I LOVE HER... I REALLY DO. EVERYTIME AS I GO ONLINE... UNCONSIOUSLY I WILL DROP BY THE BLOG TT SHE MADE JUST TO MAKE THINGS EASIER FOR THE BOTH OF US WHEN WE (SHE) CLDN'T EXPRESS HER FEELINGS TO ME FACE TO FACE. IT'S STILL THERE... AND I JUST CAN'T HELP IT BUT BREAK DOWN EVERYTIME I READ THOSE POSTS SAYING TT SHE WANTS ME BACK. SUCH IRONY. THINGS CHANGE.. SHE GAVE UP ON ME, SHE GAVE UP ON THE RELATIONSHIP. 2 YRS AND THIS IS WHAT'S LEFT, THIS IS THE END RESULT OF OUR SO CALLED LOVE. I GUESS I'VE FALLEN TOO DEEP INTO THIS RELATIONSHIP. HOW FOOLISH OF ME TO EVEN THOUGHT OF MARRYING HER N LIVE THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH HER AFTER SHE WANTS ME BACK. IT'S HARD FOR ME. ESP SINCE NOW I HAVE TO ERASE THIS SO CALLED DREAM I HAVE BUILT TOGETHER WITH HER IN MY MIND. I FEEL TERRIBLE. SUPER TERRIBLLE. I HATE HOURS LIKE TT. IT MAKES ME FUCKING EMO. FUCK THIS PHONE TT IM USING TO TYPE THIS POST, BCOS IT'S ALL IN STUPID CAPTION WHICH I CANT SEEM TO FIX THIS PROBLEM. I WANT SOMEONE WHO LOVES ME... I WANT HER TO LOVE ME. BUT IT AIN'T THE SAME ANYMORE. SHE WILL NEVER SEE THIS...
/now that you are gone.
5/16/2010 03:48:00 AM
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it has been almost 2 yrs since i last tagged my last post. so much memories flash thru my mind as i browse thru this old blog of mine. it's crazy how much i've been thru... not alone... but i feel alone now... so alone. i decided to write here after so long is not bcos i wana revive this blog, but rather, i'm burning to express my feelings out...
/now that you are gone.
5/16/2010 03:35:00 AM
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