/ Saturday, June 12, 2010
will u ever want me back?
/now that you are gone.
6/12/2010 09:24:00 PM
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sleepless nights... / Friday, June 11, 2010
SECONDS, HOURS, SO MANY DAYS... U KNOW WHAT YOU WANT BUT HOW LONG CAN U WAIT? EVERY MOMENT LAST FOREVER, WHEN U FEEL U LOST UR WAY... WHAT IF MY CHANCES WERE ALREADY GONE? STARTING BELIEVING THAT I COULD B WRONG...BUT U GIVE ME ONE GOOD REASON, TO FIGHT AND NEVER WALK AWAY... SO HERE I AM STILL HOLDING ON......
/now that you are gone.
6/11/2010 05:24:00 AM
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/ Wednesday, June 9, 2010
I JUST WOKE UP NOT TOO LONG AGO... FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE I COULD REMEMBER SO VIVDLY WHAT HAPPENED IN MY DREAM... I WOKE UP CRYING. IT FEELS TERRIBLE TT IT'S JUST A DREAM & THIS DREAM WILL ONLY BE A DREAM. (FUCKING EMO NOW) I WISH I COULD I TELL U THIS TAM, BUT I GUESS IT'S ALL OVER BETWEEN US NOW....................... IT WAS A TAM'S WEDDING CEREMONY AND I WAS INVITED. THERE WAS A BEAUTIFUL STAGE, A TAN & BEAUTIFUL GIRL. A LOT OF GUESTS WERE INVITED. THERE'S EVEN A CINEMA FOR GUESTS TO RELAX B4 THE CEREMONY STARTS. BUT AS USUAL, MY DREAM IS ALWAYS WEIRD. THERE'S THIS GIRL WHO STOLE A HANDCUFF FROM THE POLICE AND WANA HANDCUFF TAM N A GUY TGT, I CANNOT TELL WHETHER IT'S A PRANK, WANA SPOIL THE WEDDING OR OTHERWISE. BCOS WHO'S TT GUY I DONT REMEMBER! SHE SET UP A TRAP WHICH SHE SHLD HAVE USED THE BRIDE'S RING AS THE BAIT BUT INSTEAD USED STH SILLY, I THINK IS, FOOD, AS BAIT. HENCE, IT FAILED BADLY. THE WEIRD PRANK I MENTIONED WASNT THE REASON WHY I GOT SO EMO N DECIDED TO WRITE THIS DOWN. THE FACT (DREAM) TT IT WAS TAM'S WEDDING N I WASN'T THE BRIDEGROOM, THE FACT (DREAM) TT I WAS INVITED T WITHNESS THIS MOMENT. THE FACT TT I THINK I STILL LOVE HER EVEN THOU I TELL MYSELF TO FORGET, FORGET, FORGET! I CAN'T. SO LET ME FINISH MY STORY (MY DREAM). AFTER SOME CRAZY ADVANTURE, THE CEREMONY STARTED. AT ONE CORNER OF THE STAGE, I COULD SEE THE HUGE GLAMOROUS RING BEING TAKEN OUT OF A RED BOX. PEOPLE WERE CHATTERING AMONG THEMSELVES TALKING ABT HOW SHINY, PRICEY, THE RING IS. SUDDENLY... I FELT TT I WAS THE FOCUS ALL OF THE SUDDEN BCOS THE BRIDE LOOKED AT ME. THE BRIDE LIFT UP HER HAND AWAITING FOR THE GROOM TO PLACE THE RING NICELY INTO HER HAND. I WAS OVERWHELMED BY THIS SCENE. SHE LOOKED AT ME AGAIN N THIS TIME ROUND, I POINTED INTO HER FACE AS SHE LOOKED OVER AT ME, N I SHOUTED, "I HATE U!", N I TURNED TO MY BACK N RAN OFF TO THE NEAREST EXIT TT GETS ME OUT OF THE HALL. I STILL CAN RECALL THE WIND BLOWING AGAINST MY FACE, MANY FLIGHT OF STAIRS TT I HAD WENT DOWN UNTIL I REACH THE GROUNDFLOOR WHERE THERE'S THIS GARDEN WITH A WHITE COLOUR SWING TT CAN ACCOMODATE FOR 2 PERSON. IT WAS FAR AWAY ENOUGH FOR ME NOT TO HEAR A SINGLE BIT OF ECHO COMING FROM THE HALL. IT WAS ALL QUIET. I SAT ON THE SWING THINKING ABT WHAT I JUST WENT THRU. SOME MOMENTS LATER.... I HEARD QUICK SKIPPING FOOTSTEPS COMING TOWARDS MY DIRECTION FROM A CORNER. A SMALL FIGURE GIRL, DRESS IN HER MOST CASUAL CLOTHES CAME OUT OF THE CORNER N SAT DOWN BESIDE ME. IT WAS TAM. SHE WAS STILL PENTING ( MUST B HAVENT BEEN RUNNING MUCH), LOOKING HAPPY (TRYING TO CHEER ME UP I GUESS). I ASKED HER, "WHY R U HERE!? I THOT U'RE... THERE?" SHE TOLD ME SHE CALLED OFF THE WEDDING N HER FAMILY IS OFF TO THE AIRPORT FOR THE HONEYMOON HOLIDAY! THIS GIRL BLOW MY MIND AWAYA AGIN. IT'S THE SAME CRAZY TAM I NOE N TT I CAN EXPECT SUCH A THING FROM HER. SHE WAS SEATED ON MY RIGHT, ROCKING HER LEGS, HANDS STRAIGHTEN PLACED AT THE EDGE OF THE CHAIR, HEAD TURNED TO THE LEFT AS SHE TALKED T ME WITH TT LITTLE BIT OF, AH AIYA IT'S NO BIG DEAL TT KIND OF LOOK, NOT FORGETTING TO MENTION THE SMILE ON HER FACE TT'S ONE OF THE REASON I FELL IN LOVE WITH N TOTALLY MESMORISED BY IT. I CAN'T HELP IT BUT HUGGED HER LIKE NV B4, AS TEARS STARTED ROLLING DOWN MY CHEEKS AGAIN......... N THEN THE WORSE THING HAPPENED: I WOKE UP.... CRYING.
/now that you are gone.
6/09/2010 02:36:00 PM
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/ Sunday, June 6, 2010
"P K TAN! YOU SHOULD MOVE ON ALREADY!!! FUCK."
/now that you are gone.
6/06/2010 08:40:00 PM
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/ Saturday, June 5, 2010
i guess she has totally moved on already. i don't think she even misses me... never got the chance to hear from her or anything.. i guess it's time for me to move on too?
/now that you are gone.
6/05/2010 05:13:00 AM
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